Eventually, I had surgery.
I was diagnosed with endometrial cancer on May 6, 2021.
And two days later, I received an obituary that Professor Chai had died of lung cancer.
He is my relative and pupil.
I went to his funeral as if nothing had happened.
Of course, I didn't want to share my worries with anyone.
His age was 52 years old.
Rest in peace.
The world of experience is far from reality
that in particular when I went through and indirect experiences were very different.
After that, I was hospitalized for 4 nights and 5 days
at Korea University Guro Hospital and underwent various tests.
Then, on June 14, the frist surgery day was scheduled.
When a digngosis is made that it is cancer,
they are greatly surprised by the word cancer.
This is because I live with the thought that even if everyone else gets caught, I won't.
An illusion is also a big mistake.
Life is the practice of life and death,
I think of death as a commodity far away from me.
Cancer comes to me suddenly, unprepared.
I started reading books about cancer,
It was difficult to make a choice every moment only have the one-time life.
No matter how boring life is!
I went down to Sokcho because I was interested in natural healing.
I've been here for 5 weeks,
among them, 31 days were enzymatic food.
And I wanted to know about the size of the cancer and the number of cancers at the hospital,
but the doctors only wanted to do an operation.
I went through the hospital in Nowon-ro,
I also went to the hospital in Ilsan and got tested.
The surgery day is scheduled over and over, but I was postponed.
There are two reasons why I can't have surgery.
The first is because of 'stimulation of my body.'
The stimulation from my body is still continuing.
The second, because I read that the three major treatments do not save people's lives,
but rather die slowly in the hospital.
From Feb of last year to July 10 this year,
I lost a total of 15Kg due to weight loss due to diet, mindfulness, and enzyme food.
My weight is 49Kg.
Minimum weight since marriage.
I'll have to buy a bikini swimsuit on this occasion.
I was admitted to an oriental medicine hospital in Sinchon.
Without going to the hospital for surgery,
my hus was greatly angry with me for coming here.
Even if I lose weight, without surgery
I was thinking of doing a natural cure.
This is the oriental clinic I came to,
the director of the hospital recommended surgery at a hospital in Sinchon.
Every time I make a decision, I get confused.
I think it's harder to make a decision because I don't know anything about medical care.
Surgery or natural healing?
I have to be careful with caution.
Because I only live once.
I didn't want to give my life to the cancer mafia easily.
I didn't want to be an experimenter.
Does the goverment play a pivotal role in controlling
the interests of the medical and pharmaceutical communities?
Because I don't know the answer to this question.
Yet my consciousness was walking towards the hospital.
Was it because of the desire to live?
The doctor said to me that it had been three months since the onset of the cancer,
and that he needed to be tested again and operated immediately.
I was hospitalized on Aug 5 and tested again,
I had surgery on Aug 10.
During this examination, arrhythmias were also diagnosed.
Autographs were obtained prior to surgery.
'Be prepared because you may be transferred to the intensive care.'
The doctors and nurses scared me a lot.
I broke up with my hus abruptly.
I have mixed feelings.
I was put on a mobile bed and headed to the operating room.
There were many opetating rooms, and there were many surgical patients.
I could see them moving in one order through the window.
I'm not a Christian, but I asked for a moment to want to take a picture.
In fact, I was thinking.
'Don't be afraid (of anything), because I am with you.'
A voice was heard.
'How lucky is she that she didn't go to the intensive care unit and came to her seat?'
I woke up and checked my room.
Without religion, I thanked God.
Even though I was a boring life, I was happy and grateful to be alive.
And I swore to live harder.
Among the three surgical methods, laparoscopic, abdominal incision, and Da Vinci robot,
I decided to use the vertical incision in the abdomen.
I had a surgery called staging,
for the scope of surgery, the uterus, fallopian tubes, ovarian, pelvic lymph, and aortic lymph were removed.
Fast recovery after surgery,
After that, I was discharged after 5 days
because I did not need chemotherapy or radiation treatment.
How lucky!
It was difficult to inject due to vascular pain.
The surgical site was devided vertically below the navel,
so it looked like buttocks.
Buttocks in the back, buttocks in the front.
I became a woman with two buttocks.
One iron core could not be removed at the place where it was sewn with a stapler.
Sometimes this can happen.
After discharge, I went out of the hospital for a week.
My hus suffered greatly.
Afterwards, I was admitted to the Sinchon Oriental Medicine Hospital again.
While I was here for 3 weeks, I took care of my diet and exercise regimen.
I have insurance, so I have to pay for the dianosis.
My hospital bills were covered.
It's like having cancer is lost in the world,
I didn't tell anyone.
There is a lot of work to be done going forward.
The lawsuit will have to start again now.
Studying again that in an unfinished life,
I want to get a chance to make up for it a little bit.
my life
I will lift the earth
09. 6. 2021
Last Sun, the first day of the Chuseok holiday, with my second-older brother
I also confessed to my younger brother the process of fighting the disease in the past.
I received a lot of consolation.
That's what my hus said when he seduced me.
'Comfort rather than receive comfort.'
At the Sinchon Oriental Medicine Hospital,
I prepared a painting gift for my hus.
except
someone else
not looking
steadfast love
09. 11. 2021
The world is still beautiful.
It's still dazzling to be alive.
Thank God!!!
Let the stimulation from my body disappear soon!!!!!